Bummed out

It's been less than a week since our last day of school. It has been just four days to be exact. And yet, it seems so long ago that I've been stuck at home doing nothing. Thank God J.K. Rowling made Harry Potter Book 5 really long! But then again, I've just finished reading it! Ugh, I dread waking up tomorrow knowing there’s nothing left to do! And to think I was planning to become a professional bum! Oh well...

I really hate having nothing to do except, of course, during those times I've got tons of things to do! Hehe! It’s just that doing nothing makes my mind wander off. Frankly, that's not a good thing for me. Because every time it does that, my emotions follow and eventually, sink down the drain... Much sooner than I expect it to.

That's basically the same reason why I stopped writing for so long. It's been months, as a matter of fact, since I last contemplated and really pondered about life and put it into writing. I couldn’t afford to have my emotions sink low. Not when I’ve got so many papers to finish, so many projects to complete, and so many tests to study for. I just couldn’t afford to be unstable. Not when there’s so much to do!

Hence, I've turned myself numb to everything. For a while, I learned to control my mind—what comes in and goes out. And much to my surprise, I haven't been unstable for the longest time I know! Knock on wood for that! I intend to keep it that way... Hopefully, that is, until my mind gets bored again, starts to have a mind of its own, and wander off to wilderness together with my emotions! Especially now when I can’t think of anything to do! Still, I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

For the meantime, I'll just have to figure out what I could do tomorrow... Sigh...